I am motivated by getting time to sew. I get cranky and worried and no fun when I feel like my protected time on the weekend for sewing may evaporate. In the past few months I have gotten better. But I am an addict. In the best and the worst sense of the word.
I may, at times, just perhaps not be completely mentally present when doing other things during the weekend. Again, I know this is a flaw, and I want to improve. But it is difficult. And giving up cold turkey seems a bit of an extreme.
Layer on to this all of the things I want to improve about myself and my life – get fit, learn a second language, have my home be brilliantly organized, have gorgeous skin, be well read, learn to cook french well… things that take time away from sewing.
Even before sewing, I have spent a lot of time trying to define and track making myself better. Mostly a waste of time. Checking checkboxes is satisfying, but not satisfying enough.
So time for a new tactic. I have been listening to this book on audio, and it has some pretty brilliant insight on how to influence people to perform vital behaviors. It got the little cogs in my brain cogging. If I do the behaviors that lead to me being the person I want to be, I should earn sewing time. An insane, individualized plan for myself. Unfortunately there isn’t enough intrinsic motivation for me to spend time studying German or lifting weights – there are great far away benefits, but they seem too far away. Sewing is immediate and awesome.
Ok… enough of this… you get the point? And full disclosure, a blog entry earns me 15 minutes of sewing. So, you may see a few more blog posts.
I have earned 4.25 hours of sewing… so I’m off to burn ’em.