I want to write every day – but today is a day when my head and body are tired. I want to climb into bed… but I am finding that pushing through is sometimes a better feeling. Keeping this commitment to myself is important. So, with writer’s block, I am sharing some things I have drawn recently. I still have so much to learn, but these simple-line drawings don’t make me sad. They show a basic competency I never thought I would get to.
This is a picture of my stepson as a little one. He is a very serious pirate. He is so adorable in this picture. I regret all the angst I had wondering if I would fit into their lives. I knew this was my one shot at any sort of motherhood so I kept impatiently waiting for it to click, to know their love. It came, obviously. But I was impatient.
This is a picture of my stepdaughter. She is bad ass. She is so funny, generous, kind, and tough that I feel my heart expanding. This was in response to some teasing from her brother. She didn’t actually stab him.
This is Toby the kitten cat. He is the sweetest little soul. He gives me all of his love and takes years off my life with his cuteness. He treats my like a mom who will totally spoil him rotten – and I will. My mom and I were talking about the animals in our lives – the old souls and the new souls. Annie was my old soul – Toby is a brand new fresh soul – and it is sweet to be so relied on to give him what he needs. He is my baby. He is the antidote to losing my Annie – when I think of the hole she left, he will jump up to the surface I am nearest and demand attention and love. And that is perfect.
This is my sweet stepdaughter getting int the basket that Toby the kitten cat had just vacated. She is so beautiful – and in this drawing I come close to showing her sweet spirit.
Self portrait. Hard to draw – mentally. Looking at my face that long was hard – so probably a good thing for me to do. I drew this soon after I had fake eyelashes installed. And my eyes aren’t really that green. And my nose doesn’t exactly look like that. But my lips are that big.