“A lot can change in the editing room.” Diane Lane
This post could have gone two major ways – been a recap of one of the most demoralizing and difficult days in recent memory. Bad news at work. Many steps backwards in trying to correct my health issues. And I saw a raccoon. That is a pretty bad day for me.
After dinner I was feeling the pain associated with one of my “chronic” conditions. I have had several friends send me pick-me-up messages after I shared that I needed them… probably clue 1 that I needed to edit today. Despite the inflow of support, I was feeling very low. I took two Advil PMs, crawled into bed and was going to cry myself to sleep. Suddenly I decided I could give in or I could get up.
So I got up. And my husband and I took a walk. Just 1/2 an hour – but it did the trick. I stopped crying. My pain left. And I found the energy to sew a bit and write this.
I am trying to do 7 specific things every day for 44 days.
- Wake up at 5 am
- Eat a salad for a meal
- Exercise at least 30 minutes
- Post a blog
- Take care of my skin before I go to bed
- Drink 100 oz of water
- Sew for 30 minutes
Today is day 20 for eating a salad. For the rest it is day 4. Well, for waking up by 5 am it is day zero. I have yet to do it. BUT I am waking up earlier,
If I were to give into the despair, my steak for exercising, sewing, taking care of my skin, and drinking water would have ended. My will to not have it end was stronger than my will to give up. Barely stronger, but stronger.
So today could be edited as strength over retreat. Will over despair.
I still saw a raccoon though. I really hate raccoons. They are my spiders, my snakes, my high places. I’ll take all of those a million times over before encountering a raccoon. So I will need to edit out the raccoon to make today a winner.