Embarrasing revelation: I recently purchased a Tony Robbins audiobook. I am desperate to find the motivation to meet my goals.
I am 42. And that number is meaningful to me because of Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy series – books I loved in high school. 42 figures predominantly in that story. For no good reason other than that I feel like this is my year to achieve rather than strive, or even worse, just wish.
And I can’t seem to get going. And so I googled motivational books and (of course) Mr. Robbins’ books came up again and again. And the book is so cheesy. and basic. But I keep hearing his voice in my head. I keep telling myself that my decisions decide my future. And then I make the wrong decisions – food that makes me feel crappy, sleeping in late, zoning out instead of creating, distractions subverting my drive.
It is never too late to be better. I sure hope that is true.
“We can change our lives. We can do, have, and be exactly what we wish.” – Tony Robbins
There hasn’t been a picture of a quilt for a looooooong time on this blog, lots of different personal events have prevented me from getting much sewing done at all – in addition to my general slothly ennui that has been hitting me.
BUT this quilt I created for a coworker who is having a baby boy. Her colors are grey and cactus green.
I played with lots of Carolyn Friedlander fabrics – picking up other colors that go with grey and cactus green. I love this quilt… and glad to have one baby quilt done out of my growing list.
I hate cliches. I hate bandwagons. I hate soporific memes.
Yet I found myself listening to Kiss in the driveway last night and crying like a baby. I have deep pockets of precious memories linked to Prince’s music.
My friend Heather and I used to share a walkman and headphones listening over and over and over and over again to the Sign O’ The Times cassette as we rode the bus to the hell that is junior high. A lifeline for two chubby white girls, bracketing the misery of being 13 in a public institution.
In college, Prince was my secret joy. Hopelessly nerdy and high-strung and often alone, I listened to Diamonds and Pearls. I might look like a white bread sandwich, but I knew I was funky. I knew that my depths were more than people saw, and part of that persona was loving Prince.
In my 20s I had a friend who would quote lines from Purple Rain to me. It was his Star Wars, his cultural touchstone.
That friend and I don’t speak anymore. Prince is dead. I am a blubbering white woman cliche. But I know I am funky.
You don’t have to be beautiful
To turn me on
I just need your body baby
From dusk till dawn
You don’t need experience
To turn me out
You just leave it all up to me
I’m gonna show you what it’s all about
This quote came across from values.com this week. Love it. And would love to make a quilt that featured “Be Soft” on it. Might have to figure out how to do that.
Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.
– Kurt Vonnegut, writer
Take me out of the city
Where my shadow can roam
Let me breathe in the morning
Let my way be my home
– Dawes, “Take Me out of the City”
“There’s always another story. There’s more than meets the eye.” – W.H. Auden
1. Yes, duh.
2. Please read this. “Loving your body is an act of sheer courage and revolution in this culture.”
“Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.”
– Winston Churchill